Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Self Reflection: Reconstruction Debate

  1. How did I feel during planning this presentation? Why did I feel this way?
    1. During the planning, I felt as if I would be expected more than I was capable of doing, with everything else I had to do. I think I felt this way because I was among a few perfectionists, which slightly intimidates me, but just to try harder.
  2. How did I feel prior to presenting? Why did I feel this way?
    1. When I was presenting, I was nervous, hesitant, and a slight bit anxious. I forgot most of my lines, but I am luckily very well at improvising. I usually feel like this during presentations in front of people, although I am not sure why I do that.
  3. How did I feel while I was presenting? Why did I feel this way?
a. As I was presenting, my feelings were around the point of silent panic. I was very nervous, and couldn’t think of anything else to do but panic… but I always do things like that. Nobody can ever see it, though. I was also kind of psyched out, being the third person to present. I was hoping to be last, or somewhere nearer to it.
  1. What did I personally do well?
    1. I think that what I did well is not putting my hands into my pockets or fiddling with my shirt, and also not making eye contact with the audience. Although, I still didn’t make eye contact with the audience, I wasn’t staring at the screen, which is very good. Usually, I do that when I have nothing to say, like when I forget my lines.
  2. What did not go as desired in this presentation?
    1. On my slides, I had two pictures that were supposed to come in and stay, then scale up and down and disappear out. Instead, they came in one at a time and did that, and I had a blank slide afterwards, which screwed it up a lot.
  3. On a scale from 1-10, how well do I think I understood the content? Explain.
    1. 1-/9/-10 is what I would say for how well I understood it, but other people might say that I didn’t understand it completely. Why they would say that? I am not sure, but it is a possibility that has happened before.
  4. How do I think my group members perceived me? Why do I think this?
    1. I believe that my group members thought of me as a slacker and they were sad that I was in with them. This doesn’t surprise me, because I was sad that they had to deal with me, too. I am not that big of a group worker… I would rather do things alone. Presentations, though, are exceptions. I think this way because sometimes my work is incomplete, so it makes it obvious that people would feel this way.
  5. How do I think the 8th graders perceived me? Why do I think this?
    1. The 8th graders might’ve perceived me as a very nervous person, or as a person who did not finish their work well. They might’ve also thought that I just forgot all of my lines and had to make them all up on the spot. Other than that, I am not sure how they would’ve thought.
  6. Knowing that I can only control how I act and react, if I could do this presentation again, what would I change about my actions to make it a more ideal experience?
    1. I would probably move around more, and make more slides that are exceedingly elaborate, but still make sense, with a short but informational script, memorized to the smallest point on the paper or document.
  7. What are my strengths in groups?
    1. In groups, I usually try to bring laughter to stressed environments, like if someone wasn’t doing what they were supposed to and the group ahs to suffer, I try to cheer the mad and/or sad people up. Usually with jokes, other times just nice conversations… I am also a very tactical mind, and I can plan things out very well, in order to see what goes what and to plan different things. Another thing, is that I am a very creative person, I can usually imagine or make things from nothing and see things out of the perspectives of the people around me, and change my point of view to view it as a person in the audience. This can really help groups that need it.
  8. What areas do I need improvement?
    1. I need to learn how to do better public speaking, such as making eye contact, not stuttering, not repeating, not stopping, and et cetera.
  9. What is the most important thing I learned about myself? Why is this so important?
    1. I learned that I am getting better at public speaking and projects, and that most people don’t trust my abilities to work. People’s trust is important if there is another project like this, because then people won’t be sad and expect a small and bad grade because of something I may of done, so I learned that I need to work harder to impress the rest of my classmates and friends.
  10. Are there any other things that I need to express?
    1. I do not think that there is anything else that I have to express, maybe paying less attention to small details and more attention to the big picture.

1 comment:

  1. Sometimes high expectations can be daunting, but they also help you to achieve more goals. Most people get nervous right before giving a public speech, it is normal to feel the way you did. But you should not have to feel like you are weighing your group down, try to not think you are/be a slacker, and work hard. Be motivated by your peers and your self to do a good job.

    Also, you must have confidence in yourself! I think you have the potential to be a good public speaker, but if you don't try hard to be one, how can you be one? Something that helps me feel more confident about public speaking is practicing. The more familiar I am with a topic, the more confident I feel about talking about it. I am not sure how many times you practiced, but it really does help!

    Along with working on public speaking, maybe your wortk ethic could use some improvement as well. If you work hard, it will show, and you can be more confident. If you think you did not work hard, then you will not feel confident, and not do as good of a job as you could have.

    Being detail-oriented is not necessarily a bad thing, as long as you don't have tunnel vision. Seeing the big picture is important.

    I look forward to working with you!